Monday, May 7

It's May 7th!!

Wow! it's been that long since I last posted?? Time flies flies when you're....recovering! :-)

Well, I got up this morning feeling hopeful for the day. I'm hoping to accomplish goals. These are just simple, small goals like cleaning and organizing my home. Actually, general cleaning is more like it. I got up about a little after 4 am and did not rolled out of bed until past 5 am. While I was still laying down, I was enumerating on things I'd like to get done today in my home. So I was feeling excited when I rolled out of bed. But then as soon as I got to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and washed my face, a negative thought and unwanted person comes to mind. I didn't realize what my mind was into until I walked into the kitchen. That's when it dawned on me that for years, I have programmed my  mind into thinking negative, unwanted thought for so long that I got used on finding unwanted things or events or person(s) in my mind to ruin my day. I was doing this to myself. So I talked myself into thinking that I DO need to start off with positive thoughts or motivation...meaning I need to start programming my mind into welcoming, positive, motivating thoughts in stead of the other way around. it means I have work to do with my mind. It's my mind afterall, I can put whatever I want into it, it's up to me.

So, I'm just glad to be able to see that this morning because I am just so very tired of negative thinking. It drains me out ands freezes me up, ending up doing nothing. And I don't want to be that way anymore. I know these things are easy for me to say, but I will do my best to start my day with inspiring, motivational thoughts.

I watered my front yard and flower garden first thing this morning and geez! it was pretty chilly outside..... 48 degrees! I'm like, what happened to the weather? It's soo moody :-D

So, I'm up to clean and organized my home and I'm hoping to accomplish these in one week..one room at a time.

I started to think there are soo many things to do but it started to overwhelm me so I reminded myself to think one thought at a time.

All in all, I'm catching up with life pretty slowly. But I'm here though. Learning to start to love living life again.

Speaking of  living life again, boy, did I missed Jland or what??!

I hope to hear from ya!

journally yours,
Gem :-)

26 comments:

Anonymous said...

(((((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)))))))))))))))))Nice entry.Have a nice week.

Anonymous said...

Gem
You are on the right track and I'm proud of Ya.  Positive thoughts, Amen!  Yes, take the house one room at a time and it won't overwhelm you.  It is really good to hear from you and I'm glad you are getting better.
Sam

Anonymous said...

Hi Gem,. It helps to think positive thoughts. I'm going to try it too. It's turned so cold here in the UK too, I want my summer back! Good luck on the house cleaning week. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/  

Anonymous said...

I've missed you too. Yes, take one thought at a time and keep it leaning on the positive side. It always helps me keep my goals in mind. Hugs

Spencer

Anonymous said...

Yes, you must have missed us and we missed you too. I can't tell you how many times I came here only to get the "gone private" screen over and over.  I'm very happy to see you back and well.  As for the positive thinking, I totally agree...I have been trying to do that as well.  Have you read The Secret?  Love, Shelly

Anonymous said...

I'm so happy to hear from you again! I really missed your wonderful journal entries. I'm sorry that things in your life haven't been up to your standards lately, but it seems to me that your getting it all figured out now. Just take it one hour at a time. Try not to worry about the "Big" picture all the time. Your know, like you said yourself, one task at a time.
Anyway, I am glad that your back, and I hope everything continues to get better for you. Take care, and write if you'd just like to talk. Other wise, I'll look forward to your next entry. You Go Girl!
Rhonda

Anonymous said...

Great to see you around again!   I too, am trying to be more positive and after years of negativity it ain't easy!   But if I could do it, YOU could do it.

Rah, rah,
Nancy

http://journals.aol.com/nhd106/notions-of-nancy/entries/2007/05/05/tribeca/2218

Anonymous said...

Great to see you back Gem....missed you...cleaning house is a great way to release negative energy...I like to sort and throw thngs out when life starts closing in on me.  I can throw out the junk in my mind along with the junk in my house...results are a cleaner more organized house and cleaner more organized mind at the same time!! :~)
   Good luck and think sunshine!!
    Love Marie in TN

Anonymous said...

Surround yourself with the positive...and stay away from negative people!  They will drive you nuts.   I have to remind myself sometimes to drain out the negative stuff; let the negative words go through one ear-out the other.  It's hard--I know.  Hang in there, and have fun organizing!  It can be fun getting stuff in order!  Take care, and welcome back!  Julie :)

Anonymous said...

Glad your back. Its been a long time.

One thought at a time...that is some good advice there. I think I'll have to remember to remind myself of that whenever I get overwhelmed.

Spring Cleaning huh? Play some great music and you'll have your home done before you know it.

Anonymous said...

There you are! Glad you are back!!!! xoxBarbara

Anonymous said...

Welcome back. I think we all need to take a break once in a while. I'm going through a bit of stuff too. I think when things build up too much, it does become overwhelming. I quess we should be our own cheerleading section, our mantra can be.....baby steps, think positive, start small....big finish, baby steps to start...I'm going to try too.  Sandi

Anonymous said...

Hey there girlfriend!!!  I just checked last nite to see if you were back and i missed it... I always look for you and I am happy to see you here!  Yay!

{{ Gem }}  How about putting some affirmations on the bathroom mirror?  I do that with messages for the kids and kissy notes... always nice to wake up to!!!

:-D  The house will be there... take your time...  To catch up on my life... look in my archives in April and read 'say say say'.

be well,
Dawn

Anonymous said...

BRAVO, GIRL!  BRAVO!!!!

Anonymous said...

Way to Work It Gem!  One room at a time works for me ... regularly.  Here's my trick:  when I think negative thoughts, I get out the cleaning supplies and get working.  Somehow all the activity not only lightens my load but makes my house shine.   Good weather brings good thoughts ... get outside!  LOL -- right after you finish accomplishing what you'd like.  

So glad to see you here and writing.  :)

Anonymous said...

Bout time!

Anonymous said...

Hey you have a choice everyday to work towards being happy or being miserable.  That simple choice says which foot forward you're going to take.  Enjoy the happy road.  ~ Mike

Anonymous said...

glad you are back:) have a good week

Deb

Anonymous said...

Hey Gem ... So glad to hear that you were able to 'turn that frown upside down' so to speak !  Well.... this morning I had reason to rejoice, too.  I woke up to find that I am 53 years YOUNG today, which means that I made it through my dreaded 52nd year.  See, my father died at 52, and I had this weird feeling about making it past that age, so ... YIPPEE !!  Hope all is well with you, my friend.  I hope the rest of your week is a wonderful one.  xx  Tina

Anonymous said...

"If your only possesion is a hammer..soon enough, everything will look like a nail"

Not my quote, but one that I use as a reminder on how NOT to approach life.

Gem, always remember....if you look at things too closely, you'll never see what lies on the horizon...and if you only stare into the Horizon, you will never see what is right in front of your nose!

maximize! Look at life from both sides!   You'll just love what you'll see!
Peace Joy and harmony!   Marc :)

Anonymous said...

Gem,
I love what Marc said!!!~~~
Good to see you writing again, really good. By the looks of your comments, you were really missed :o)
Have a wonderful week my friend.
Rebecca

Anonymous said...

welcome back and take it one day at a time! :)

Lahoma

Anonymous said...

Geemie!
(I run in, scoop you up and run out the door, swingin youa roudn liek awild banchi!)
hugs gemmi!
I have missed you so!(((Gemmi))))
love,nat

Anonymous said...

Nice to see you back again -- and in a much better frame of mind to boot. Hang on to the little joys of every day, m'dear. Once you start looking for them, you'll find they're everywhere.

Vicki

Anonymous said...

Welcome back, my long-lost friend.

I'm glad you're well.

Anonymous said...

Happy thoughts, and energizing zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzaps sent your way.
Be well
  Laugh often.
       Play hard.
                     Michael