Wow! it's been that long since I last posted?? Time flies flies when you're....recovering! :-)
Well, I got up this morning feeling hopeful for the day. I'm hoping to accomplish goals. These are just simple, small goals like cleaning and organizing my home. Actually, general cleaning is more like it. I got up about a little after 4 am and did not rolled out of bed until past 5 am. While I was still laying down, I was enumerating on things I'd like to get done today in my home. So I was feeling excited when I rolled out of bed. But then as soon as I got to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and washed my face, a negative thought and unwanted person comes to mind. I didn't realize what my mind was into until I walked into the kitchen. That's when it dawned on me that for years, I have programmed my mind into thinking negative, unwanted thought for so long that I got used on finding unwanted things or events or person(s) in my mind to ruin my day. I was doing this to myself. So I talked myself into thinking that I DO need to start off with positive thoughts or motivation...meaning I need to start programming my mind into welcoming, positive, motivating thoughts in stead of the other way around. it means I have work to do with my mind. It's my mind afterall, I can put whatever I want into it, it's up to me.
So, I'm just glad to be able to see that this morning because I am just so very tired of negative thinking. It drains me out ands freezes me up, ending up doing nothing. And I don't want to be that way anymore. I know these things are easy for me to say, but I will do my best to start my day with inspiring, motivational thoughts.
I watered my front yard and flower garden first thing this morning and geez! it was pretty chilly outside..... 48 degrees! I'm like, what happened to the weather? It's soo moody :-D
So, I'm up to clean and organized my home and I'm hoping to accomplish these in one week..one room at a time.
I started to think there are soo many things to do but it started to overwhelm me so I reminded myself to think one thought at a time.
All in all, I'm catching up with life pretty slowly. But I'm here though. Learning to start to love living life again.
Speaking of living life again, boy, did I missed Jland or what??!
I hope to hear from ya!